Sunday, August 17, 2008

switching seats on the titanic

One of the old saws that I used to hear in my days in Overeaters Anonymous was that switching compulsions/addictions was like switching seats on the Titanic.

During the first year post-divorce I stopped eating compulsively and lost 35 lbs., but started spending money compulsively. So, obviously, spiritually/emotionally, things weren't as great as I then thought. I was euphoric about finally having gotten out of my abusive marriage, but still had lots of spiritual work to do.

Right now, as far as I can tell, I am free of compulsive behavior most (75-80%) of the time. Sometimes, especially when overtired (another OA ditty - HALT -don't let yourself get too hungry, angry, lonely, or tired) I revert to old behavior.

Of course, I didn't realize I had switched compulsions right away, the last time around, but I know that my awareness of the connection between spiritually connection and freedom from compulsion has grown since then.

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