from tuckertown to orchardtown

people have been asking me why i'm moving again

i initially moved to tuckertown, as opposed to orchardtown, where i used to live in my married days (not real town names - related to their real names in a far-fetched way) to be near my daughter and her family, because it was cheaper to live there, and because i wasn't sure how it would feel being back in my old stomping grounds/back to the scene of the crime.

i love being near the kids and grandkids, although i see them less than i thought i would, mostly due to my own choice to be alone and quiet after work

tuckertown has gotten much more expensive lately

i think i'm in a stage of life right now in which, on the hole, i prefer deepening relationships with old friends than making new firends, and my old friends are in orchardtown

tuckertown is on a hill surrounded on three sides by Arab villages

orchardtown, or at least in my part of it, is surrounded by Jewish villages

I find it much more conducive to creating a healthy mental state to look around and see Jewish villages than arab villages

I'm not sure whether this is coming from a part of me that is spiritually connected or disconnected

On the one hand, it could be a sign of connectedness to enjoy feeling surrounded by other people who, at least in theory love you as a fellow member of the tribe

As opposed to people who may be seething with hatred towards you and wishing you dead

On the other hand, there may be a fear element involved, which can be a sign of disconnectedness

On the other hand (running out of hands) sometimes fear is justifiable and can lead you to safety

on the other and last hand for now, i know, realistically, that i'm not physically safer in one place than the other

i'm going with my gut feeling that orchardtown feels like home